When I started writing about my achievements I had planned to write next blog on the problems, obstacles and situations I had come across. I never wanted to take along those pains with me and for some reason I am unable to leave them behind. So, i decided to just put them here and get rid of them forever. I would like to mention here that any statements on my blog are just my own thoughts and its intention is to clear all the clutter in my body/soul and this should not be used as any evidence or points to judge anyone. Everyone has their own nature, their upbringing, the environmental conditions because of which they would have reacted in that way. Its me who was not able to overcome them or handle them at that point in time.
Okay ! lets start here then.
My dad always wanted his children to get educated and settle down in life and being in Hyderabad gave us that environment. However, the social thinking they would carry in minds would always come out in some form and would sit in my mind.
My parents had left me with my Nani when they went to Hyderabad, I missed my mother sometimes and I can still recall that specific moment when in the night while sleeping I would just Mummy, Mummy. After few years my Dad came to take me finally. We visited our village before we go back to Hyderabad. I would be maybe between 8 to 10 years then. One day My dad complains of not helping my aunt with work and I don't know why he says that until he says me that my Aunt complained him that I did not help her. I was shocked, I did not even know if I had to do anything. They expect girls to be mature and helpful as soon as they are born.
I was in class 3rd and we used red ink pen for writing questions on our notebooks, someday by mistake I must have rubbed that red ink on my hair and you know next day my mom while making my hair would ask me what that was? Not just that she would add your dad will kill you if he comes across you talking to any boy. I was clueless why she would say that and within me I have that pain and embarrassment .
Okay ! lets start here then.
My dad always wanted his children to get educated and settle down in life and being in Hyderabad gave us that environment. However, the social thinking they would carry in minds would always come out in some form and would sit in my mind.
My parents had left me with my Nani when they went to Hyderabad, I missed my mother sometimes and I can still recall that specific moment when in the night while sleeping I would just Mummy, Mummy. After few years my Dad came to take me finally. We visited our village before we go back to Hyderabad. I would be maybe between 8 to 10 years then. One day My dad complains of not helping my aunt with work and I don't know why he says that until he says me that my Aunt complained him that I did not help her. I was shocked, I did not even know if I had to do anything. They expect girls to be mature and helpful as soon as they are born.
I was in class 3rd and we used red ink pen for writing questions on our notebooks, someday by mistake I must have rubbed that red ink on my hair and you know next day my mom while making my hair would ask me what that was? Not just that she would add your dad will kill you if he comes across you talking to any boy. I was clueless why she would say that and within me I have that pain and embarrassment .
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